| Do you ever feel that it takes more work,
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| | numb?" Sometimes they give in and admit
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| more out of you emotionally, to live a
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| | that they like living in an aware and
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| conscious life than it did to live
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| | awakened state. Sometimes they give me
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| less-than-consciously? Many years ago I
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| | the look that lets me know I'm skating on
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| had a T-shirt made with the saying, It's
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| | thin ice, that their answer just might be
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| A Bitch Being Conscious. I wore it on the
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| | a resounding "No!" if I weren't so
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| first day of my Journey Into Ecstasy
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| | chipper.
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| workshop intensive because I could count
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| | I can relate. I like the temporary high
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| on it to evoke instant, knowing laughter
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| | that blaming and playing the victim
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| from all the participants.
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| | provide so well. Blaming feeds my ego and
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| So why do we do it? Why do we keep
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| | playing the victim allows me to
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| working on ourselves when it takes so
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| | relinquish responsibility for my life.
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| much effort, when we'd sometimes rather
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| | Who wouldn't say, "Bring it on!"
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| be zoned out, pour a cold one, light up a
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| | But once the high leaves, I'm stuck with
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| joint or cigarette, or grab the remote?
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| | all my hangover symptoms: depression,
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| Why do we put ourselves through seeming
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| | lower self-esteem, helplessness, and
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| torture for no guaranteed rewards,
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| | hopelessness. I wake up and see in the
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| sometimes paying a hefty price for the
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| | mirror someone who traded the excitement
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| privilege of doing so? Are we just
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| | of possibility for the drudgery of
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| masochists disguised as seekers and
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| | inevitability, someone who is stuck in a
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| healers? Is ignorance perhaps, if not the
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| | rut, reading from a very boring script,
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| best policy, at least a better one than
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| | complaining often and loudly. I see
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| relentless self-examination? Who is it
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| | someone who, while familiar, is less than
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| that said that the unexamined life is not
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| | admirable.
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| worth living? A lot of people might
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| | Kicking and screaming, or at least
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| disagree.
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| | whining, I stop the chatter and remind
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| I know that I'm supposed to answer these
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| | that face in the mirror what the goal of
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| rhetorical, "teaser" questions for you in
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| | consciousness is: happiness. I tell
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| this paragraph. I'm supposed to justify
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| | myself that I am more than the sum of my
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| and validate all your hard work, the
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| | fears, self-judgments, and limiting
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| money you spend on coaching, therapy,
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| | beliefs. I quiet the chatter long enough
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| workshops, and books, the courage you've
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| | to hear my spirit's whispers. And when I
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| mustered to face your demons. But you
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| | persevere, I do occasionally stumble onto
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| know, I don't know why anyone does it.
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| | great and unexpected joy. More often, I
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| When my coaching clients express how hard
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| | find myself feeling at least a small
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| this work sometimes is all I can do is
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| | measure of peace. I'm grateful for that.
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| smile, agree, and cheerlead. I say things
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| | Is it all worth it? I guess each of us
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| like, "Doesn't clarity feel better than
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| | needs to answer that question for
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| confusion?" "Doesn't feeling your
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| | ourselves.
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| emotions feel better than walking around
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